It may be surprising to know that I come to my site almost daily. Not to finally get off my butt and share something. Instead I just click on my blogroll links and read about everyone else's interesting life. It's not just a busy schedule that keeps me away these days. It's also the feeling that everyone has a blog. And I mean EVERYONE! I don't fault anyone for that, no matter their reasons for joining this huge club. That's just a fact. I often feel like, "what could I possibly have to add?" And, then I let another day slip by without sharing.
I will admit to loving this forum for keeping my far away friends and family up to date on what is going on in our world. I am under no illusion that I will become famous for what I write about here, or that droves of readers from around the globe will click over to find out what riveting plans we have for our next family trip, DIY project or craft session with the kids. Like so many other bloggers out there, this is my way of letting folks into my world and life without using up all of our phone time on why I chose the paint finish used in the bathroom remodel, or all the tweaks that were necessary to get a recipe just right. It's also the best way I have found of preserving some of our little family memories since I almost never remember to write anything down any where else. (Both baby books look like what I imagine forth and fifth siblings get from their poor bedraggled moms when all is said and done.)
I miss being here and recording what is going on in our lives. But, there is something I refuse to miss even more.
My kid's at this age.
There are days when I spy my lonely desktop from across the room and pine for the time to steal away and write about the past year or so that is just slipping through my fingers faster than I can see, let alone grab. Then I look at those little smiles, the tiny feet, itty bitty fingers and realize I need to enjoy this time now. Rather than look at my life in pictures later, I need to be present today without the camera in front of my face. I had a dream that my kids were asked to make drawings of their family at school. Both came home with sweet little crayon scribbled portraits and both had replaced my head with a camera view from the lens end. I don't need a dream dictionary or psychologist to figure the meaning of that one out. Although, with that being said I do actually hope to take more pictures going forward. There are some expressions my little girl has already started to lose just because her baby fat is melting away and if I cut the curls of my son's hair short he instantly becomes a mini-man before my eyes.
I want to capture more moments, both here at the blog and through my famously CSI style photos, but mostly by experience.
All of this to say, that I may be out of commission right now, but I have not forgotten this love of mine and I will make a better effort to share more going forward.
Hope everyone is having a great life out there!